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his/her specialty. I consider myself as a person that has high self-awareness and intrapersonal intelligence. One of my specialties, since I was a child, is related to my super sensitivity about what is happening around me, not physically but more about emotions. This specialty gave me lots difficulty for me during my childhood. As a child, I didn't have enough knowledge or experience to understand what was happening inside my brain.

I automatically focused on many things that people don’t usually care especially at such young age. I felt different; however, the feeling didn't bring me honor and confidence instead caused problems and made me pain. Distressing experiences not only bring you pain but also make you grow. I tend to agree with this point a hundred percent. At the moment I have realizedthat I shouldn’t evade my past. Consequently, I have started learning about "me," which has made me grow extremely fast.

Today I can’t say that I fully recognize what is the "real me," because first I’m still not mature enough and secondly I don't want to define myself yet since I'm still young and I have an infinite possibility in front of me. I leave at least 50 percent “myself” for the future, and 50 percent “myself” for the present, then I would have enough ability to hold myself strongly enough, at the same time I still have passion for change and future because there are 50 percent “myself” still waiting for me to explore. I don't know if this feature makes me unique enough among the thousands of candidates, but what I have learned from myself is that as long as I can

be assured saying: "I'm special," then I am special. Taking advantage of educational opportunities I have been studying in America for almost four years now.

I went to Canada majorly for an exchange program during my sophomore year and then transferred to San Francisco to finish the rest of my education. When I was in Canada, I almost didn't spend any time on my course and I still got pretty good grades as a result. When I came to America problems occurred to me. I was still in the mood of “study is simple” and didn’t put much patience into my education. I wasn’t a student that doesn't care about my grades; in fact, I cared too much about it. So when I realized that my grades were broken, I tried to repair them, but it was too late.

In America, if you excel homework and you fail in homework, then the whole course is dead. I became extremely anxious and stressful after that. It was during a period I was trying to escape from the education. When people put you under too much pressure or too stressful situations, the brain will start to think tons of negative "bad ends," and this is what I was experiencing. Under that situation, my counselor who was working in my high school as an international director and also as a Chinese teacher said to me not to overestimate myself while lifting her left hand to stress the point I was shocked. I was pretty sure I have heard something similar before in my life, but at that moment I suddenly understood what’s wrong with me.

Parent’s hope, people’s sense of “good

student” and my self’s high-intense of good grades. But where is mine? What’s the thing that I want for myself? I then recognized that for the past many years I never thought about why I should study hard, who I am and what I wished for myself. Although I still got pretty bad grades at that semester, I managed toovercome the most critical barrier not only in my education but also in my whole life. My leadership experience and the influence on others In these years of discovering myself, I honestly found the importance of leadership ability. Some real leadership experience I had so far may not be some big incidents that I can use as a show-off, but it helped me improve a lot. I’m currently in Chinese Association groups at College of San Mateo.

Joining the Chinese Association of Oregon State University helped on several events and made me gain some experience about liaison, which needs a lot of communication with people. Although I wasn’t a leader, somehow joining the group profited my team and enabled me to develop my leadership skills tremendously. I had some stage experience; I used to build my band in high school and had several performances as a singer. I have just joined a band led by my friend who was the keyboard player of my high school’s band and had a great performance last week. I still remember we performed on our graduate fair that year and people were going crazy because we were the first rock band to have ever appeared in that high school. Since we are all international students, at that moment I realized how

few people or a single individual could positively affect people around them.

I’m still acting more intrapersonal, but I'm pretty good at decision making because I like to think a lot and that is why I usually make good plans. Specifically, when making group plans, I would not only decide by the personal ability but also by personality. I can carefully deal with some emotion problems ranging from my mates having different opinions into verbal fights which I can successfully regulate to make both sides happy. I have the passion for becoming a real leader someday, becoming a person that people would respect because my ability and charisma and that day won’t be far.